又是很久没有更新了，这期间发生了很多事情，Thelma合约到期回国了，最后一节课自己太激动，以至于难以控制情绪没有当面告别，留下的是祝福和感激。实验虽然辛苦但还算顺利，毕业论文虽然有波折，但是最后还是得到了比较满意的结果。一切能尽力的都尽力的，感谢惠惠，感谢老师们。本以为6月就可以安定下来，没想到毕业的相关事宜一大堆，答辩和论文的终稿到20号左右才结束，接着就是大小聚会、留念、送别，人生路上又一些必经的过程重演着，曾经共同拥有过的时光，曾经生活在一起的人儿们，曾经奋斗过的图书馆，曾经辛苦过的实验室。一切随着第四个夏天的来临，成为了曾经。感受到了大家迎接新生活的兴奋，也体验到了火车站集体送别的悲伤。有些人，说好了再见，但是。。。。。。也许大家都知道再见的机会很小，有些人就是永远的离别，毕竟大家都是天各一方，曲终人散，每个人都在继续自己的生活，每个人都在为以后的人生奋斗。

      而且不仅大学同学都走了，高中同学也各奔东西，出国的，继续奋斗的，到外地打拼，留在外面不回来的，也许这就是生活，聚聚散散，也许早应该习惯，时间不会为任何人而停留，也许我们也不应该留在原地，默默地彼此祝福的同时，在自己的路上继续前行。

 

最后放一张，在实验室拍学校一角，算是纪念了。

自从大四下学期，学校就没有课了，大家做实验的做实验，找工作的找工作，今天是周五，又该去上可爱的Thelma的NYT class了，身边的同学听说我要去上课每次都要惊讶一番，，很喜欢Thelma，尊敬中带着崇拜，she is the MBA profeesor working in our school. and she mastered at least 5 languages. She began to learn Chinese when she was 18, it is unbilievable but it is true. HOWEVER, she isn't a linguist but a economist. She was already the executive of an American Bank for Asian issues in HongKong.

总觉得介绍她用英文更好一些，感觉，呵呵。事实上学校给她的钱不多，一个月的工资虽然跟校长开的一样，，但是跟她在美国比起来还没有赶上一天的工资，也是，美国高金融很赚钱的。不过她还愿意留在这里，而且她的NYT CLASS IS FREE。就是这样free and interesting, 经常有意想不到的收获，比如今天，知道了曼哈顿是一个island，我所熟悉的只是the bottom, it also can divided into the lower the center and the upper. Wallstreet is at the bottom and it belongs to the lower, there is the central park in the center and U of Colombia is there on the 100th street. What made me surprise is that the upper is very dangerous expecially in the night, it is the place of poor black people and they sell drugs there. In the upper, they won't kill you but they will take you, away to anywhere, and it maybe other country like China or Africa or any where, no one knows. That's really terrible and the police in NY are busy with drugs and the same problem is also in Los Angeles. Where is the riches people live in US? Manhattan, but the only central part.穷富只隔一条街，NO.126 STREET，AND THE UPPER AREA IS EXTENDING TO THE SOUTH.

 

又跑题了，就算我是温习功课，课堂上知道很多以前不知道的（也许是我真的太孤陋寡闻了），而且我佩服她的奉献精神，可以说是无私，一个五十多岁的American Lady, 暂不说来到中国如何如何，很多老外来中国是挣钱的，甚至有些是骗钱的，但是Thelma是真正的想做一些事情，而且做了，不求回报，印象很深的是去年她给我们读的一篇关于非洲童工的文章，很多事情其实真的即使在发展在中国都想象不到的，我们国家现在发展得确实很好，虽然还是发展中国家。非洲的那些儿童真的很可怜，我们的命运还能选择一下，挣扎一下，他们出生以后没有选择，挣扎也是没有用的，心寒啊。 Thelma 说她在美国有很多有钱的朋友，但是像慈善事业捐钱的很少，而且有些人即使很有钱但是对别人还是很小气，希望我们以后不要成为那样的人。以后如果有钱的话捐钱给世界儿童基金会给需要帮助的儿童。她每年都会寄一些钱过去，而且，从她那里我学到的不只是爱国，更要爱世界，爱人，更要爱每一个人。世界是不公平的，这一点必须承认，如果能力去帮助别人何乐而不为？真的，现在为钱而活的人太多，而为爱而活的人太少了。想到这里觉得心痛，还是从我做起吧，希望自己永远心中充满博爱，希望世界上为爱而活，为世界而活的人越来越多 。

刚刚发现很久没有更新了，最近一个月大部分时间是在统一和食品研究所实习，统一比较有意思，不过只是做方便面的生产线，跟上次的参观实习不一样，这回到了生产线上监督，使在生产线触手可及，实施上感受了压得像整张纸的面，吃了刚刚炸出来的干脆面，在生产线上随便拿的，所以还是热的，很久不吃这类食品了，这回在了解调味料都不是撒在上面的了，而是和面的时候就已经加进去了。还有寒冷的仓库，没见过的人工老式电梯，原料，卡片，油都要取样，还有蔬菜包原来不是在这里生产的而是现成的脱水蔬菜，生产料包的机器也比较简单，横竖印压密封。不过还是在微生物检验室和理化检验室待的时间最长，此外还帮着磨面，听说有人最爱干这个了，其实感觉企业比事业单位（就是省检验二站）的检验量要大，不过准确度不会那么高，毕竟检验出来的东西没有法律效用，只是自己留作参考。而省检验站就不一样了，检验的食品都是厂家送来的，送来检验的目的就是为了在这里获得具有法律效力的结果，不过一起方面感觉还是统一比较好，有很多直接是台湾过来的，而且培养皿是一次性的，在微生物实验室，工作量最大的就是刷瓶子刷试管刷培养皿。两个地方的工作人员刷实验仪器的时候的方法也都不一样，不过效率都很高，要是我们在学校那种方法一定一天什么也不用干，光刷试管了。

 

实习之中遇到了一些人，已经工作的人，有些工作很久了，有些也是刚参加工作的研究生，有教导，有经验，与他们谈话非常的有意思，想法、经历、趣闻，还有原本的同学通过实习也对他们的想法有了了解，真的人和人不一样，省乳品中心的事业单位要一个男生，老师本来想推荐的，但是竟然没人愿意去，男生都希望自己闯一闯，也是，年轻的时候不闯一下，怎能验证自己的价值，不尝试而甘心于安定的生活的一定不会找到最好的那个自己。都说一个人在外面闯荡也不容易，不过这年头又有谁容易呢？希望找工作的同学都能找到工作，考上研的要珍惜机会，没考上的再接再厉， 我要一个offer就行了，先写这么多，吃饭去了。

 

最后还是放两张pp吧，其实是去年参观的时候拍的，这次去没有带相机，毕竟参观和实习不一样，实习就是要有点专业精神，参观虽然也是学习，但是还是觉得有那么一点旅游的性质。

检验站很古老的仪器柜子                               同样古老的酸度计                                统一生产线

 

一连几天哈尔滨都下着小的不能再小的毛毛细雨，今年的天气本来就很反常，南方雪灾，北方确没有怎么下雪。而且每年的这个时候哈尔滨还在飘雪，而今年确很早就下棋了类似梅雨时节的细雨，地上总是湿湿的，空气也湿湿的。心情根据最近陶瓷的进度漂浮不定，现在除了等待什么也做不了，还有那出来捣乱的玉米胚，找了整个城市也没有卖这宝贝的，我的实验都指它呢，唉。

 

昨天晚上出去买鞋，外面又是细雨，不仅觉得有些凄凉，我跟姨妈说要去看爸爸，结果出租车司机竟然转身看了我一眼，搞得十分不爽，黑暗中感觉到嘴角已经有咸咸的味道了，唉，马上就5年了，时间过得太快了，而且我从高三变成了大四，以后说不定有phd5, 毕业时节，又是分离，也许有分才有合吧，同学，同学中的一些人，一些事。很多事情都过去了，不过不知怎的，我就是爱把它们经常翻出来-怀念。有人说当你开始经常回忆往事，那么你就开始老了。难道我老了？不过我这个习惯初中就已经有了，所以说明道理也是有使用范围的，这个道理就不适用于我。有人怀念是寻求自我安慰，有人怀念是自寻烦恼，比如我。

 

胡言乱语了一番，心情好多了，以后不用暂时不用英文写日志了，妈妈说看不懂，所以以后改了，不过估计我的意识流大概妈妈还是看不懂。

 

黑暗。。。New Start。。。光明。。。Forever

 

 

 

When I suddenly realized there are only 20 days left for me before the GRE, my feeling is complex. A little afraid, a little discomposure, a little tired, a little exciting and a little sentiment. Perhaps it acompanies me too long, nevertheless, this one is my last GRE test, I won't take more.

 

The merely words I wanna say to myself is no matter the result is good or bad just keep going on and fighting!

Yesterday, I heard a song which singing by twins, who I do not like and never feel their songs are great, by chance. This song is not that outstanding neither the melody or the skill of singing, nevertheless, the lyric just reflect my feeling these years. Although it is not exactly, It is almost like that. How time flies, nearly 6 years has passed, I am not sure what once happened between us till now. Perhaps many changes took place, however, I do not know why I still cannot face it unperturbedly. I know I always ramstam on something maybe that's just my character. Let time make it ! I will be better someday!

Two years' time elapses quickly, this Thursday, the day I should say goodbye to the Students' Union of my college. Nevertheless, just at that moment, the feeling is complex. It is not easy to tell why or for what exactly, maybe a little attached to, maybe there are too much of my efforts, maybe there is some happiness, some sorrows ,some... Undoubtedly, I've learned somethings from it and made a some friends but not a lot. I am not the one who is extroversive, or the one who is smooth and slick. I donnot want to  please everyone because I donnot think it is neccessary. Someone and something is just passed by, not all the things happening around are meaningful for everyone. Just be myself is OK. Maybe, from I have grown up after these two years. Maybe somethings I just know but not want to do it in others' way. It seems like some kind of escape-Yeah, that's it. In fact I just do not to change into a style that I do not appreciate. Perhaps everything will be all right soon and I will get used to my new step.

New semester has began two weeks ago, and sine then many classmates around me are busy preparing for Graduate Candidate Test (GCT) of 2008, some other classmates prefer taking the test of official. I, who is intend to go abroad, suddenly felt great pressure and a little maze. However, in actual fact, my aim is no more clear-to study overseas. Why have I felt such uneasy? These days a large amoute of thoungts weltering in my mind and I comfort myself times and times again that in order to get something I want I must take a risk. No one can get all the things he desired without sacrifice. In addition, what I try to tell myself is that no risk almost equals no gain.

 

It is quite clear that at the moment when I decided to go abroad, the only thing I can do is keeping faith and going on without any chance to retreat. Therefore, that is the mere thing I have to do now-Keeping my own faith and fighting!

Today is the first day of Spring Festival and a new start also. Finishing my AW test, I should be involved in my paper test, however, I decided to have a little rest for some days. The test is OK, but I donnot know why I am not that happy as expected. My state is that I donnot have any special feeling about the Festival or any other things. Now, I am not passionate, not setimental, not sad, but just numb. Perhaps I just feel a little tired, so that no energy is available to feel the surrounding, no emotion can be utilized to think any more. Having a daydream with myself, wandering on the internet, nothing to do but it also a lot of work waiting me there. Even have nothing to do, I still hardly feel a little boring, nevertheless, I don't like the state I am in at the moment. Maybe I will get better soon. Having a short break and I will breath again, brave again.

2.16, the day I will challege myself again, the day I have excepted for long, the day I will say goodbye to the year of  2006. It is hard to say what is my feeling now, maybe a little nervous, a little exciting, a little worring...

 

Anyway, I prepared better than last time, but not that well also. No matter what will happen, I will go on pursueing my dream. By the way, tomorrow mother, aunt and I will visit my grandparents. Best wishes for them and my ... God bless them all!

 

Wish to encounter the topic that in my mind ! God please bless me!

The final exam of this term finished today and with recovery from my cold I will begin my 35 days AW fighting as soon as possible. This is a chance that I give myself and there is no more excuse to lose but to win with my efforts and hard work. I cannot predict my further exactly but what I can see is the hope in front of me and I know it is my time to fight for my tomorrow! God bless me , good luck!

How time flies!

 

Due to undersea fiber optical cable damages caused by earthquakes at Taiwan region, I cannot open my space website,and therefore have not written anything.

 

Without awaring of the changes around me, I am already enter the year of 2007. On the Dec.31st evening, I went Harbin new-100 department store with my dear mother. To my surprise, the Saint Sofia square is much more comely than before after the improvement of environment and the ornamental constructions around. May be I haven't been there for quite a long time that I was amazing at her beauty.

 

I have to stop here to go to sleep, may be I will write something about Harbin NO.1 department store somedays later.

 

Bless me that every thing goes well during 2007

 

 

First of all, I wish everyone will have a wonderful Christmas Day.

 

Secondly, I hope everyone will have an excellent perfomence in the coming year.

 

Third, I anticipate everything will go well !