violet sea: 心情抒怀

清明时节雨纷纷

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 08:46:43 GMT

一连几天哈尔滨都下着小的不能再小的毛毛细雨，今年的天气本来就很反常，南方雪灾，北方确没有怎么下雪。而且每年的这个时候哈尔滨还在飘雪，而今年确很早就下棋了类似梅雨时节的细雨，地上总是湿湿的，空气也湿湿的。心情根据最近陶瓷的进度漂浮不定，现在除了等待什么也做不了，还有那出来捣乱的玉米胚，找了整个城市也没有卖这宝贝的，我的实验都指它呢，唉。

昨天晚上出去买鞋，外面又是细雨，不仅觉得有些凄凉，我跟姨妈说要去看爸爸，结果出租车司机竟然转身看了我一眼，搞得十分不爽，黑暗中感觉到嘴角已经有咸咸的味道了，唉，马上就5年了，时间过得太快了，而且我从高三变成了大四，以后说不定有phd5, 毕业时节，又是分离，也许有分才有合吧，同学，同学中的一些人，一些事。很多事情都过去了，不过不知怎的，我就是爱把它们经常翻出来-怀念。有人说当你开始经常回忆往事，那么你就开始老了。难道我老了？不过我这个习惯初中就已经有了，所以说明道理也是有使用范围的，这个道理就不适用于我。有人怀念是寻求自我安慰，有人怀念是自寻烦恼，比如我。

胡言乱语了一番，心情好多了，以后不用暂时不用英文写日志了，妈妈说看不懂，所以以后改了，不过估计我的意识流大概妈妈还是看不懂。

黑暗。。。New Start。。。光明。。。Forever

The final chance

Fri, 05 Oct 2007 14:19:19 GMT

The following 2 months are the most important time for my application. Too many uncertain factors and too many assumptions. In fact, I often ask myself whether I can get over this period of time, whether I can come over myself.

Sometimes I feel a little fear, will I......? If... not...? Then what's going on?
Sometimes I feel a little tired, if I didn't.......? Maybe today is much easier.
However, no choice but this one, and what's more, no chance but this time.

Can I?

life still going on

Wed, 25 Jul 2007 15:11:39 GMT

My blog hasn't been updated for a long time and the reason may be the most common one-too busy. It is also an excuse because if one really wanna do something, he will do it no matter how busy he is. Although time is limited, there will be a little after being well planned. Oh, that may be some kind of straying from the point. In fact, I only wanna write sth without knowing what I wanna convey and I do not think that's too bad.

Busy, yeah, these days is really a little. The finale exam of this term, the practice, the work of compiling the book, and some other things really made me tired. Fortunately, the finale exam is ended up with a satisfying result and the practice is finishing. However, what is unfortunate is the books, though one is finished temporarily, another is following which I am now making my effort to compile it. What's more is that the chapters of the book is the work of my department director, and I am only the one behind the scenes. Sigh! Hope one day I can work for myself. The most terrible thing is one of my papers can't be published and the reason is the student can not be the first author and that means my 1-2 months work goes to waste, which made me feel rather upside. I really very admire the undergraduate students who have papers publiced as a first author, especailly on Science or IE.

Excepted some entertainments, my summer vacation will not be too relaxed. Nevertheless, thinking of there are lots of other people who are much more busier and bear much more pressure than me, I feel much better. Tomorrow is another day, cheer up!

The first day, a new start!

Sun, 18 Feb 2007 02:39:46 GMT

Today is the first day of Spring Festival and a new start also. Finishing my AW test, I should be involved in my paper test, however, I decided to have a little rest for some days. The test is OK, but I donnot know why I am not that happy as expected. My state is that I donnot have any special feeling about the Festival or any other things. Now, I am not passionate, not setimental, not sad, but just numb. Perhaps I just feel a little tired, so that no energy is available to feel the surrounding, no emotion can be utilized to think any more. Having a daydream with myself, wandering on the internet, nothing to do but it also a lot of work waiting me there. Even have nothing to do, I still hardly feel a little boring, nevertheless, I don't like the state I am in at the moment. Maybe I will get better soon. Having a short break and I will breath again, brave again.

welcome the new years' coming

Sun, 31 Dec 2006 18:43:05 GMT

How time flies!

Due to undersea fiber optical cable damages caused by earthquakes at Taiwan region, I cannot open my space website,and therefore have not written anything.

Without awaring of the changes around me, I am already enter the year of 2007. On the Dec.31st evening, I went Harbin new-100 department store with my dear mother. To my surprise, the Saint Sofia square is much more comely than before after the improvement of environment and the ornamental constructions around. May be I haven't been there for quite a long time that I was amazing at her beauty.

I have to stop here to go to sleep, may be I will write something about Harbin NO.1 department store somedays later.

Bless me that every thing goes well during 2007

Today is Christmas Eve

Sun, 24 Dec 2006 07:59:50 GMT

First of all, I wish everyone will have a wonderful Christmas Day.

Secondly, I hope everyone will have an excellent perfomence in the coming year.

Third, I anticipate everything will go well !

Today I am 20

Sat, 09 Dec 2006 16:24:45 GMT

I am lucky that I can write this blog at the very minute that my 20th birthday is coming, and this week I recieve surprise from time to time which make me very exited. I've got an honor from our school the first time although I deserved to get more than that. Now I can really give myself an answer to what I had done and what am doing now. I am not a crazy girl and fortunately I know what I am doing for. Best wishes for my bright furture, hoping that I could get best sores of T&G and get more achievements in the coming year. Enjoy myself while fighting for my dream as a member of gter,seazing every minute.

Last but not least I want to thank my parents and all the people I've known whether they are now around me or far apart, whether they are the real freinds or the net ones. All of you are the gifts god gives to me and I am really appreciate it.

My 20th birthday

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 10:14:02 GMT

Yesterday is my 20 years old birthday and I had this important moment with my other 5 roommates. We invited them a big dinner and they bring me a beautiful birthday cake about 16 inches which made me very surprise indeed.

For the first time, I spent my birthday with my classmates instead my parents and relatives, however, the feeling was fantastic-specailly when they were singing the 'Birthday Song'-I feel warm overwhelming and blessedness of course. Nearly on the top of the world.

At the time I came to the 20th year in my life, I felt little afraid. In fact I never hope to grow up and I would rather to be a kid forever, who won't think over too many things and haven't that many obligations,actually, I like the state of puerility even innocence. But now, I know that a great many things are waiting me there and I sometimes live in pressure which never exist when I was a little child.

No matter how unwilling I am, the fact is that I must face it and cheer up. Challeages are there at the front and I will win the battle for sure. Wish myself good luck!

Go on to another battle

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 02:53:46 GMT

10G is over and I am going to attend 6G, the test is not as hard as expected actually, however, I did what I had planned.

These two weeks I am looking for a chance to attend a group, which is doing experiment and I will do them a favor if they need a person just like me. If everything goes well, perhaps I will have a paper. Thinking of this, I feel very excited indeed, although I will not be the firstplace writer.

Besides helping my department deen doing something just like collecting teaching materials, I watched 'prison break' also, but have not finished yet. Maybe I love the hero right now, the plot is attractting and the hero is so intelligent and I am longing for watch the rest.

This afternoon I will attend a bee of our college's students' union, and I guess it must be boring!

not in a proper pace resently

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 09:30:59 GMT

10.28 is coming soon but I haven't got in the very good state and not feel a bit feeling of the limition of time. That's terriblely bad and especially when you've known a lot of work is lying there waiting for being accomplished, however it seems powerful reason that would impluse me to touch it. The GRE work is such a large scale that maybe makes me a little afraid. Sometimes maybe is a kind of avoidation, perhaps just a demonstration of lacking courage.

To be a great man, requires not only the persistency and also a great deal of bravety. On the way to G's success, one must aqquire many virtues that may make you get further achivement tomorrow, therefore, I will do my best to do it and encourage myself continiously.

Just hoping more and more dreams wil come true by my great efforts and tomorrow will be another day, everything will goes well!

PS: This is my first english blog,and there must be some mistakes. It is just a attemption and a result of thinking that as a member of Gters writing my blog in english must be benifited. Welcome to correct my blog's grammer mistakes in your comments, thanks a million!

杀AW-战敏-看HERO

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 04:06:44 GMT

终于可以写东西了,呵呵,今天看到朋友都用英文写BLOG了,真有些惭愧,呵呵

8.21考了第一次G，比我想象中的好，不过还是不太理想，呵呵。
接着就是大病一场，第一次吃海鲜过敏，可能是备考的时候太拼了-对我来说（可能对大牛来说不算什么），加上学校每天要做试验，所以我的免疫力就急速下降，后果可想而知。。。。。。
在就是一直关注的加油！好男儿，因为忙所以很久没有看了，今天晚上总决赛，我当然是看的咯！所以又熬夜了，我不是谁的fans，不过很多人我都很喜欢，结果不是很重要的嘛，只是觉得有点浪费时间，不过谁没有点看ppgg的爱好哦！

超越第一次

Wed, 24 May 2006 11:58:57 GMT

一直想写一些东西,可能因为太忙了吧,自己的BLOG都没有写过一篇自己的东西,每天会想很多东西,也会有意外的感悟,有些激励着自己前进,有些给自己带来小小的惊喜,有些只不过是给自己一些安慰而已,给单调的生活添几抹亮色,通过阿Q的精神胜利法告诉自己生活原来还有许多美好的东西,五月的丁香花是那样的芬芳,雨后的清风拍在脸上也感觉无比清爽,从小生活在充满丁香花的城市里,五月无疑成为了每年最芬芳的季节.满眼的花朵,一簇簇,一团团,虽然没有艳丽的色彩但不乏淡雅清晰,花朵也没有什么复杂的结构,简单的四瓣形成十字形,平凡又脱俗.

好象有些跑题了,呵呵,不过我觉得随着感觉写不去顾及什么文章的章法,也是很舒服的事情,这也是我的第一次尝试吧!第一次有自己的BLOG(虽然已经很久了,但一直没有去管,它自然也就没有发挥过自己的作用);第一次在BLOG上写一些自己的东西;最近真的发生了太多的第一次,第一次把红宝啃了一遍,虽然用了3个月,但这可是从小到大第一次系统的背单词啊!算是一个突破吧!背过第一遍后虽然没记住多少,但第二遍的速度明显加快了,我相信以后会更尽如人意;还有上周刚开完运动会,第一次没打伞,第一次无所事事的在喧闹的环境中发呆,想着可能已经想过千百遍的问题,没有看书,没有聊天,只是任思绪乱飞,风儿狂吹.

现在好多10G的都已经开始写A和I了,我还没有开始,因为老毛病嘛!总是完不成计划,因为给自己的借口太多了吧!其实谁都会说应该如何如何去做,但要真是想做好一件事情是需要毅力的.有人说21世纪不缺钱,缺的是想法,但世上60多亿的人,怎么会缺想法呢?缺的应该是有想法,有能将想法付之以行动的且能够想疯子一样执着于此的人.这样的人真的不多,因为这世上有太多的诱惑,我们每时每刻都背大量的包围着,而自己的目标,自己的方向很容易被其他的事物所左右,我们面临着太多的选择,面临着太多的挑战,有时会听别人说活着没有意思,那时他们不懂得去寻找挑战,不懂得给自己"找麻烦",我们应该去尝试一些值得一试的事物,给自己的生活增添一种别样的颜色,撒一些特别的调料,第一次的尝试也许会使我们爱上一件事物,可以让我们屏弃一些不适合自己的东西,不去尝试怎么会知道什么是我们想要的什么是我们不需要的.第一次的突破不仅给我们以惊喜,还会鼓舞我们继续前进,在以后的路上希望能走得更顺更好.......

呵呵,不小心写了这么多,现在我要像我的AW挑战的,第一篇I和A,希望能尽快新鲜出炉!超越第一次,我相信前方将一片光明!