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Farewell

Thu, 31 Jan 2008 13:09:28 GMT

Absence from whom we love is worse than death, and frustrates hope severer than despair.

------William Cowper

2003、2006、2008 time and time again I experienced that feeling. No word but tears. I know I can't be together with family all my life, and farewells may come one day. However, I still cannot stand it. The night before you left me, we sleep together and in the dark my pillow was wetting by tears and I know you was also crying. No one said anything, no one fell asleep. The first time of my life Alina left me alone to seek her own dream abroad. I know it is a good chance for her and surport her from the bottom of my heart. But, how, how can I be so fragile, just like in the hell. I am worrying about all of you

May you always have work for your hands to do.
May your pockets hold always a coin or two.
May the sun shine bright on your windowpane.
May the rainbow be certain to follow each rain.
May the hand of a friend always be near you.
And may God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.

Yet I do not hope you are the same as me, tears may more than words. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Today I saw the letter you left to me, I know your meaning and I will try my best. It is a challenge for all of us and we know that we are fighting for our reunion. I wish we can come over it in a short time.

Remember, you are not alone! I am always here with you! Take care my darlin!

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Gone - flitted away,
Taken the stars from the night and the sun
From the day!
Gone, and a cloud in my heart.

A song reflects my feeling

Sun, 22 Apr 2007 09:51:45 GMT

Yesterday, I heard a song which singing by twins, who I do not like and never feel their songs are great, by chance. This song is not that outstanding neither the melody or the skill of singing, nevertheless, the lyric just reflect my feeling these years. Although it is not exactly, It is almost like that. How time flies, nearly 6 years has passed, I am not sure what once happened between us till now. Perhaps many changes took place, however, I do not know why I still cannot face it unperturbedly. I know I always ramstam on something maybe that's just my character. Let time make it ! I will be better someday!

Say goodbye to the Student Union

Sat, 14 Apr 2007 00:44:30 GMT

Two years' time elapses quickly, this Thursday, the day I should say goodbye to the Students' Union of my college. Nevertheless, just at that moment, the feeling is complex. It is not easy to tell why or for what exactly, maybe a little attached to, maybe there are too much of my efforts, maybe there is some happiness, some sorrows ,some... Undoubtedly, I've learned somethings from it and made a some friends but not a lot. I am not the one who is extroversive, or the one who is smooth and slick. I donnot want to please everyone because I donnot think it is neccessary. Someone and something is just passed by, not all the things happening around are meaningful for everyone. Just be myself is OK. Maybe, from I have grown up after these two years. Maybe somethings I just know but not want to do it in others' way. It seems like some kind of escape-Yeah, that's it. In fact I just do not to change into a style that I do not appreciate. Perhaps everything will be all right soon and I will get used to my new step.

Something written on April Fools' Day

Sun, 01 Apr 2007 01:43:32 GMT

Keeping my own faith

Sat, 17 Mar 2007 02:47:12 GMT

New semester has began two weeks ago, and sine then many classmates around me are busy preparing for Graduate Candidate Test (GCT) of 2008, some other classmates prefer taking the test of official. I, who is intend to go abroad, suddenly felt great pressure and a little maze. However, in actual fact, my aim is no more clear-to study overseas. Why have I felt such uneasy? These days a large amoute of thoungts weltering in my mind and I comfort myself times and times again that in order to get something I want I must take a risk. No one can get all the things he desired without sacrifice. In addition, what I try to tell myself is that no risk almost equals no gain.

It is quite clear that at the moment when I decided to go abroad, the only thing I can do is keeping faith and going on without any chance to retreat. Therefore, that is the mere thing I have to do now-Keeping my own faith and fighting!

I wanna go to TIBET

Fri, 15 Dec 2006 08:39:58 GMT

This week I suddenly have a strong desire of travelling to Tibet.A holy land, in high repute of "the Roof of the World", this mysterious, sacred plateau is Qinghai-Tibet Plateau today. I plan to go there in August when I will finish the test of G&T, however, another problem still waiting there for me-no parterner will go with me. After careful thinking I haven't change my mind and I have got the permission of my mother to travel alone. It must be a great challege for me and it must be no more exciting. I hope I can realize the plan and I will be of great pleasure if I could find a parterner to go with me! My classmate who is from Qihai said I was dreaming but I know I wasn't, I will head for the target!